Could This Be True Love – Episode 10
Could This Be True Love (episode 10)
Last episode!
Derrick’s question almost gave me a heart attack. I didn’t know what to say even if I knew the answer to his question. I never imagined myself being faced with a situation as this.
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“Soso I’m still waiting for the answer to my question” he said smiling, “I don’t know what to say” I replied facing my head downwards. “Deep inside your heart lies the answer and you know you can’t lie to yourself” he said. I finally summoned the courage and said “Yes I do, I still love him but that doesn’t mean I want to be with him” I said.
“I totally understand, it’s not easy to get over someone you truly loved especially if he was your first” he said. Can I ask you another question?” He continued, “Go ahead” I replied, “Do you have any feelings for me?” He asked.
I was mute for a while and said “I find myself thinking about you at odd times, I find myself thinking about you in the midst of pains, you put a smile on my face whenever I think about you, you came into my life when I was shattered and gave me hope. I might not know you too well to judge too soon but all I know is that you have a large heart and that you are a good man” I said looking right into his eyes.
“I love you Soso, please let me into your heart so I can mend every broken pieces and fix them together” he said. I was so emotional at this point and wanted to kiss Derrick but I had to get myself together and take things easy.
“Derrick it would be difficult for me to completely trust and love someone again, I might be in love with you but it’s not enough reason to let you into my heart” I said almost in tears. “Soso what do you want me to do to prove to you that I’m ready to go down this road with you? He asked, “Can you wait till I heal? would you still be here after a long time and not give up too soon? I asked. “You are worth the wait and I’m willing to wait” he replied.
We finally retired to bed and I woke up every now and then to stare at Derrick while he slept. The sight of him asleep was something to die for, he is indeed a keeper and I prayed silently that he would endure and prove to me that he’s the one.
Derrick made breakfast and we ate together. After eating, we played and laughed all day till in the evening when it was time for me to go home.
I got home and picked up my phone to call Charles. “Hello Charles” I greeted, “Hey babe” he replied. I smiled as I heard him call me “babe” even though we were apart.
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“I just called to tell you that I have forgiven you” I said, “Ok thanks” he replied in a low tone. “Are you ok?” I asked in a concerned tone, “I’m fine soso, I messed up and it caused me our relationship, I don’t know if I would be able to heal anytime soon. I love you Soso, always had and always will” he said.
Oh my! I really love Charles and it would be very hard for me to move on but I have to. The lies and betrayal caused a stigma that would be unable to erase. I had to move on, even though it was going to be a hard decision.
“I’m always here for you Charles” I said and finally said Goodbye to him. I’m done with guys for now and if Derrick truly wants me, he would have to wait till I’m fully healed and ready to love again.
I’m going to love myself like never before and would take as much break as I can. I want to love again when my mind is right and my judgments aren’t covered with prejudice. I would love again when all wounds have been healed and my scars have become a lesson and a blessing of what I learnt and what I overcame.
Until then, just until then! Would I open the doors of my heart again. I chose Myself!