I Will Wait – Episode 40
EPILOGUE
It has been a year since I found out that the life I thought was true was actually a lie, I turn twenty six in a few weeks and I must say I still don’t have it all figured out. I need answers, I have lived by the rules and yet my heart was still crushed by someone. Well that experience taught me things, things I wouldn’t have learnt had I not gone through them. To say that I am not hurt about Corny’s death would be a lie, I fell in love with him and it will be very hard to forget about him.
The Kazadis had left in tears because their son had made them feel less of good parents when all they had wanted to do was raise their kids right.
Wane and Cornell are still together, their relationship had been rocky after that ordeal but truth is love really conquers all.
Corny had taken Esther’s words really hard, he was found the following day dead with a note that said ‘I am not sick’. Guess all he was trying to do was prove to the world that he wasn’t sick when in actual sense he really was.
I on the other hand have learnt quite a lot from this experience, not everything that glitters is gold is so cliché a saying but it still stands true. I never gave myself time to heal after my breakup with Cornell, I rushed into the wrong relationship without
giving my heart a chance to heal. I was supposed to be healing but instead I chose to rush into another relationship.
As we speak I am nursing my heart, I am learning to love myself a little too much because I know only then can I know how much someone is supposed to love me. Secondly I have also learnt that sex does not keep a man, no matter how good you can be in bed if he wants to leave you he will; and lastly I have learnt the hard way that a man who loves you to the coil has no right to enjoy the privileges of a husband. Only until he is ordained under God and the law can he start having those privileges.
won’t rush into a relationship
I won’t rush into giving in to a man just so I can feel wanted
I won’t use anyone as a rebound just so I can feel worthy
I will love myself more
I will work on myself
I WILL WAIT.
