I Will Wait – Episode 39

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I looked at the documents again trying to make sense out of them, nothing was adding up. I really wanted to believe it but then I couldn’t, at this point not even tears could bring back what I had given away. The one thing that I had promised myself to keep till my wedding night, I had given away on a silver platter.

I pulled myself together and slumped into the nearest couch. ‘You lied to me?’ I asked looking into Corny’s direction. ‘What are you talking about?’ he asked defensively ‘You don’t love me, do you?’ I asked

‘Let me see what you have there.’

‘Really? Does it matter? All I want to know is whether this has been real’.

He looked down then at his parents.

‘What have you done?’ he asked a little stronger

‘You have to stop this Corny.’ His mother said almost breaking down He walked over to where I was and grabbed the envelop from me. ‘Have you been going through my staff?’ he asked his parents ‘Corny this has to stop now.’ His father said

‘You had no right to go through my stuff.’ He said fidgeting with his pockets ‘Are you looking for this?’ I asked him pulling out a bottle of anxiety pills ‘Give me that.’ He said as his fingers trembled

He got them from me forcefully and gulped down about six pills, they had dropped from his pockets whilst we made love in the car and I had planned on giving them to him after finding it out what they were

‘You did this to me, the both of you.’ He said looking at his parents ‘We did our best to raise you the right way.’ His mother said

He laughed, showing us a side of him that we didn’t know existed ‘Son where did we go wrong with you?’ his father asked

‘I have waited for that question all my life.’ He said moving one of the dining chairs

He sat down and licked his lips burying his shivering hands deep in the pockets ‘I loathed being the perfect child; do you know how it felt like living up to your standards? Do you know how many times I wanted to be exactly like Cornell? Do you know how many times I wished I could just trade my life for his?’ ‘What?’ his parents asked in disbelief

‘Yes I wanted to be wild; I wanted to live my life without any of you detecting me around but then my brother did that.’

‘You are sick.’ I told him not believing a word he said ‘Yes Yolanta I am sick and I love it.’ He responded

I thought through what I had read on the papers, it was a doctor’s report from five years ago that he had been diagnosed with bipolar. The first doctor had not made a proper diagnosis and that is why it had become like this and the worst part is that he did not accept that he needed medical attention. Also were images of all the girls he had slept with, most of them were those he picked up from the streets and he made sure to punish them after the act or to take away something they loved. He believed that parents were responsible for how children turned out and it was his duty to make such parents meet their ancestors.More interesting stories available on Topster Stories App

‘You see dearest father you made me this way and you.’ He paused pointing at his mother

‘And you allowed him; instead of making us feel equal you too picked your favorite.’

‘But they always preferred you.’ Cornell said

‘I never wanted to be preferred; I wanted to be wild, to be reckless. But see what they turned me into.’

‘But why me?’ I finally asked after keeping quiet for a long time

‘I hated you the day I met you and that has never changed but then you turned out to be a porn piece on my chess board, trust me sweetheart people get used every day. You weren’t the first and certainly won’t be the last; the best thing you can do now is nurse your broken heart, this should be a lesson to never fall easily for a man. The sex was not part of the plan but I have no regrets about it, too bad you have to remember me as the man that hurt you in that way.’

I couldn’t believe he was actually saying that to me, he was not at all remorseful. I couldn’t bring myself to crying, I was in denial and nothing made any sense.

‘Cry all you want, what were you thinking? That I could forget about my fiancé just like that? You thought I could just let it slide that my brother slept with the woman I had committed my life to? Esther made me sane, she was wild and I needed that to make up for my image. You were nothing but a fool.’ He said looking through me

‘And you little brother, I have loved you with everything in me. I have gone beyond heights just so we can be the perfect bond, but what did you do? Hurt me where it hurts the most.’

‘I didn’t know that she was your lady.’

‘Had you been faithful to your girlfriend all this wouldn’t have happened!’ he rebuked

‘So you think you are perfect? So you think that by doing all this then you are holier than all of us in this room?’ Esther asked with tears streaming down her face ‘You are nothing but a whore and you don’t deserve to live, I have only spared your life because of that bastard you are carrying. I don’t want a monster’s blood on my hands.’ He said referring to her unborn baby

‘You can call me a whore or anything else but you are the worst in this room, you are selfish. You use people, you are a murderer and you are sick!’ ‘I am not sick.’

‘Yes you are, your character has proven it and the doctors too have proven it. You have a high level of bipolar and you are more harmful to yourself than to individuals around you.’ She yelled some more holding her belly ‘I am not sick.’ He cried

‘Yes you are sick.’

‘No.’

‘Yes.’

I watched the two as they went back and forth arguing, I stood up and walked to my old room. The weight of the world on my shoulders, I banged the door behind me and got under the covers as I waited for sleep to come over me. It had been done, I had been played and nothing could change it. ****

Favoritism or partiality can be very damaging to children; the favored and the one not favored. Being over critical as a parent and comparing children could also cause them damage. Mental disorders are realer than we think, just because we don’t see them doesn’t mean they don’t exist.

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Tbc

I WILL WAIT