Confessions Of An Escort – Episode 29

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It has been three days since Mark chased Urah out of his place, I must say it has been the longest three days of my life because this time around I haven’t known what to do.

I am always on top of my game and in control of my life but for the first time I am stuck and not sure of what to do.

I look at the files in my hands that I have been staring at for the past thirty minutes, my phone is close to me hoping that maybe Francis will call but he has been quiet. Every morning he texts to check up on me and in the evening he calls to say good night and ask about how my day was generally. I am not surprised that he is

treating me like this because obviously after much thought he doesn’t want to spend his life with an escort.

Picking up the file for the last time, I make a diagnosis from all the findings and page the nurse in charge to come over to my office.

‘You called me.’ Aunty Chitalu says after knocking once and letting herself in

‘This file is ready.’ I say handing it to her

She goes through it and I see how her face remains the same, I have worked with her for five years now and I must say I have never regretted it.

‘Do you want to do it or I should?’ She asks

‘I am in a very bad place, please do it.’ I say

‘Alright.’ She responds and walks out of the office with the file

I take a deep sigh, the file in her hands are of a patient that recently got referred here from the university teaching hospital. The child has been failing to walk and stand for a year now and they couldn’t find what was wrong with him, after many tests from me and other doctors we have finally established the problem. For some unknown reason his spinal cord has fractures which are causing him to be the way he is, and from the way it looks nothing that medicine does can help him at this point and he will have to be like that for the rest of his life; unless of course God intervenes.

I look at the wall clock, it’s time for me to go home but I decide I will stay another shift because I am not sure I want to go there because the only thing I seem to be doing is think.

I call Chisenga and ask that I talk to Sean because I won’t be home until later, he sounds excited and I am only guessing it’s because he will use the afternoon to water his plants and not go through his books like I always make him.

There is a knock at the door and so I drop the line.

‘Come in.’ I say looking at the door

It opens and Ezra walks in, I don’t know what to feel or think but all I know is that he is the last person I want to talk to right now.

‘Sorry to come without an appointment.’ He apologizes sounding genuine

I just look at him wordlessly

‘Can I sit?’

‘Please.’ I say clearing my table

There is silence in the room, I could have offered him some juice or water but I won’t be hospitable to someone I don’t even like right now.

‘I came to talk to you about Sean.’ He begins

I notice the wedding band on his ring finger

‘We went to civic center.’ He says when he notices me looking

‘Congratulations.’ I say

He opens his mouth to say something but closes it

‘Katie I am sorry, honestly I am. I didn’t intend for things to get this messed up, had I known that it would get this far I would have acted better.’ He says dropping his guard

I want to laugh, really I find this funny because I am surprised why he is here now.

‘Why now?’ I manage to ask

‘You have known about Sean for like what? Forever right? And you only come here to apologize now and you think I am going to look past the fact that you left me behind, young and pregnant?’

‘Katie the milk has been spilt and there is nothing I can do about it, I don’t want to fight you. I am not here to fight you, all I want is for us to bury the hatchet and move on.’

This time I laugh, so hard my insides break and my tears fall.

‘Ezra you must be damned to think that’s how life works, you honestly believe you can come from God knows where and apologize for your mistakes then I will take you back like nothing happened?’ That you can just trample over anyone and then a few years later it’s all hugs and kisses?’

‘Katie.’

‘Don’t you dare Katie me.’ I say now on my feet

‘I was eighteen for petes sakes, my family abandoned me and you knew about my pregnancy and what I was going through. But you decided to go behind my back and date my sister, my twin sister. As if that wasn’t enough when you were done with her you went away and came back with another woman to marry, not that that is a problem but you actually thought I would just welcome you into my son’s life as his father and role model?’

‘I am sorry.’

‘Like hell you are Ezra, like hell you are.’ I yell some more

‘Do you have an idea what I went through raising a child alone, do you think I didn’t consider getting rid of it? I was alone and I had no idea how I would survive but I did. I found a way of getting past the pain, I found a way of living again and you think you will drag me back to scratch.’

‘I am not here to take away your role as his mother, on the contrary I just want to co parent.’

‘That’s not why you are here Ezra, had you wanted to co parent you would have reached out sooner.’

‘Katie I forgot!’

‘Forgot huh?’ I ask with a smile that pricks my insides

‘Who forgets about their child honestly? Are you just stupid or childish?’

‘I will not allow you to insult me.’ He says standing up

‘Do you think it was easy for me as well? Do you think I wanted to go to Germany and leave you behind, both you and I know that I loved you. Whatever we experienced was genuine and it can never be questioned.’ He adds

‘You loved me and yet you fucked me over? How ironic Ezra!’ I yell