In Love With My Brother’s Best Friend – Episode 17
Chapter 17
~Alexandra~
It had been two weeks.
I have never said a word to Zac and he did the same. We both ride to school and ride back home.
And lock ourselves in.
Even Ricky tried to find out what’s wrong with us. But I couldn’t say anything.
If a break up feels like this then it hurts like hell.
I cry myself to sleep, I feel like I have lost some part of me. And the worst part is I don’t know what is my mistake, I tried to go over our conversation a thousand times and I couldn’t say where have I gone wrong.
I want my Zac back, I can’t breathe or eat even sleep. I want my love back.
It’s not like I didn’t try to move on, I tried to forget him, but his name is engraved somewhere deep in my heart.
Even I, I can’t find it, now I feel like my whole life has stopped and I have stopped living.
I am a total mess, my clothes, my room everything is messed up.
This past few days I have been staying on my own. All I need is to breathe, he’s my addiction my air.
I want him in my arms.
I need to feel his touch his kisses, I need him.
And he’s just sitting here acting like everything is okay.
“Alexa, are you okay.” He shook me bringing me back to reality.
I glared at him as my eyes turn bloodshot. Right now I just want to lock myself in a room.
I feel suffocated, I want to get away from him.
I opened the car door.
“Alexa do you want to kill yourself!.” He yelled.
I didn’t care about that. I want to run away from him. Tears rolled down my cheeks.
“How could you jump from the moving car.” He said calmly.
He was about to touch me.
“Don’t!.” The car halt.
And I got off the car and hurried inside the house.
“Ale… I wait to hear what Ricky has to say.
I rushed to my room and locked myself inside the bathroom drenched myself with cold water as hug my legs. And cry my heart out.
Breaking into peace, I need him back. I can’t act like I’m okay when I know that I’m not.
I give up I need him, I really need him. It hurts to see him every day but I can’t touch him even to get close to him. I thought I will be fine, I thought in just a week I will be fine.
I give up, I give in, I surrender to him. I can’t stay away from him. I love him to a point I hate him. I raise my white flag, I want him back.
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We let the waters rise
We drifted to survive
I needed you to stay
But I let you drift away
My love where are you?
My love where are you?
Whenever you’re ready, whenever you’re ready
Whenever you’re ready, whenever you’re ready
Can we, can we surrender?
Can we, can we surrender?
I surrender
No one will win this time
I just want you back
I’m running to your side
Flying my white flag, my white flag
My love where are you?
My love where are you?
Whenever you’re ready, whenever you’re ready
Whenever you’re ready, whenever you’re ready
Can we, can we surrender?
Can we, can we surrender?
surrender I surrender
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Suddenly the door burst open. I was freezing to death. Hang my head between my legs.
“Holy shit!.” I heard him curse.
“What are you doing?.” He picked me up, under the shower.
I sniffed.
“Why can’t we work?.” I hit his chest.
“Why why why? Do you how painful it is? No, you don’t feel anything because you did this you must be happy right, put me down, let go of me you bastard put me down.”
I bit him on the collar bone, I didn’t realize the metallic liquid that flows down to his chest. I wanted him to feel the pain.
He put me on the bed.
“I’m sorry.” He cupped my face.
My teary eyes stared deep into his. His forehead against mine.
“I’m sorry Alexa, It’s me okay who is wrong so why are you punishing yourself.”
I couldn’t say a word.
“Why don’t you want us to be together?.”
I choked on my tears.
“Do you really want to know?.” He looked serious.
I nodded, “whatever it is, I’m not going anywhere, it can’t be that bad.”
He nodded.
“Then get changed first, I don’t want you to catch a cold.” He said worriedly.
“Yeah, okay.”
T B C
This song lyrics are meant for many unsaid words, you know some feelings can’t be described. And sometimes we understand how we feel through lyrics. When we are happy we listen to beats sometimes and when we are sad that’s when the listen to what the lyrics and understand them.
So these characters can’t explain how they feel in details but the songs will help you guys to understand them, without writing long boring chapters.
I will just minimize the paragraphs two and half, small paragraphs. Please hang on there continue to read and enjoy.
I can’t wait to see Alexandra’s reaction when she knows his deepest secret.
Guys what do you think?
