In Love With My Brother’s Best Friend – Episode 15
Chapter 15
~Zac~
I don’t know what’s wrong with me I have never felt anything in the past 12 years.
It was like that until now.
What I’m feeling now makes me feel scared.
Am i turning to be one of them.
Because i was never one of them. The last time i remember i was one of them I was only
Eleven years old.
I just feel weird and I need to talk to someone, I need help. I wish Ethan was here.
But even if he was here, he will be mad at me for messing with her little sister. He loves her so much.
I just know that what I’m doing is kind of wrong, it’s not like i didn’t try to stay away from her.
I did try, I tried hard for the past two years.
That day I slept over in her hiuse because Ethan had something to attend. I felt this pull but I chose to ignore it.
And that day we kissed I fu.ck kissed her!, I know that she likes me a lot even that her friend Ria.
If I were to choose between her and Ria, obviously I would choose Ria. Not because she’s pretty but because she safe and not a virgin. Yeah i could see through her. But I’m afraid her friends don’t know her, that is one of the reasons I want to protect Alexa and Ariana from her. But I’m thankful that Alexa has a strict brother who loves her so much.
But as for Alexa she makes me feel somehow and I can’t explain it.
I’m a fu.cked up person, I am a mess total Jerk. I have had many sex with girls but I have never felt like how I do now.
I had messed around, that’s one of the reasons I moved here. And ever since I moved here I only struggled to keep a low profile. Yeah, we went to parties with Ethan and fu.cked some girls, but. Don’t think she knows that.
It’s just not healthy for us to be together and I don’t want to mess with her head.
She is sane and pure I want her to remain like.
I’m never committed to one person, I only hit and run. And never come back for second time.
It’s like that, even though few girls still run after me. I only fu.cked Marisa twice and she thought we were dating. She went insane to a point wanting to set both of us on fire saying
If she doesn’t have me than no one will.
She is a psycho, I know I’m not better than her.
That’s when I made this rule one fu.ck and you fu.ck-off no second time.
But girls I tell you, they don’t listen. I’m a bad boy and I know that so I need Alexa to stay away from me.
But that seems impossible right? Because I even run after her. I don’t want to dirty her.
She’s so peaceful and pure, and that makes a part of me to cling on to her.
I can’t try anything silly with her, I was supposed to keep my hands off her.
How could she want to be with me? I have been wrecking my brains but nothing came out from thinking. My brain tell me to stay away and I should be doing that but something so foreign wants me to keep her.
This is all madness total madness, it’s funny because even I I’m not able to stop it.
Sociopath always be a sociopath, I get angry and loses my temper easily. And I don’t want to hurt her. Even though I have never raised a hand to a woman, because it’s not right I know that.
Even though I stabbed some guy with a knife. Well I had my own reasons. And I was not guilty. I take my pills every day and the only person who knows this is my family including Ethan.
But I still don’t get it why he trusts me with his sister and as for me I don’t know anymore.
T B C
Zac asked you guys to help him select a song which will give a hint to Alexa that he is not sane, he is not exactly what she thinks.
Should we help him, guys?
I think we should.
“Issues”
I’m jealous, I’m overzealous
When I’m down, I get real down
When I’m high, I don’t come down
I get angry, baby, believe me
I could love you just like that
And I could leave you just as fast
But you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too No, you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too
‘Cause I got issues
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
It takes to solve ’em
Yeah, I got issues
And one of them is how bad I need you
You do shit on purpose
You get mad and you break things
Feel bad, try to fix things
But you’re perfect
Poorly wired circuit
And got hands like an ocean
Push you out, pull you back in
‘Cause you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too No, you don’t judge me
‘Cause you see it from the same point of view
‘Cause I got issues
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
It takes to solve ’em
Yeah, I got issues
And one of them is how bad I need you
(I got issues, you got ’em too)
And one of them is how bad I need you
(I got issues, you got ’em too)
‘Cause I got issues
(I got)
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
(You got ’em too)
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
(I got issues)
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
(You got ’em too)
It takes to solve ’em
Yeah, I got issues (I got)
And one of them is how bad I need you (You got ’em too)
Yeah, I got issues (I got issues)
And one of them is how bad I need you (You got ’em too)
Yeah, I got issues (I got)
And one of them is how bad I need you
And he also said, why do you guys think he is the one that who stabbed Ricky
After that, he laughed and he said.
Even him also he doesn’t know if he did it.
Guys, did you hear that? Zac I tell you.
He is so handsome I couldn’t keep my eyes off him. 1.8 tall dark hair and honey skin color tanned.
I was totally drooling. that was meant to be a secret.
winks see ya’ tomorrow.
So comment and tell him if it’s a good song choice. And if you have another better song, on the comment box paste it there chiao
